I made it this far, nothing can hold me back

I have come to the realization that nothing is perfect and that as hard as I try I can't make it that way and I can't prevent things from happening. I feel sorry for the people that have to deal with my high stress levels on a day to day basis (Mike takes the brunt of this). Slow but sure I am learning to change, I am learning to EXCEPT the things that are out of my control.......it's hard OH is it hard for me but I am trying. I know if I don't I am going to die early from a heart attack or severe hypertension. My melt downs are happening more and more, does this come with age??? cause I hate it. I hate the way I feel when I over analyze everything that it brings me to a point of complete MELT DOWN!!!. I start believing in things that are not even prevalent or that I can't control, so why worry about it??
I recently got a book that is called "10 simple things to remember" and I love reading it so I thought I'd share it.
1. Love is why we are here.

2. The most important day is today.
           This is a big one for me because I seem to forget this sometimes. I contantly worry and stress about the future and everything I am doing today that will make my future better. Don't get me wrong I find that I love this about me because I am doing so much today to improve my life tomorrow but....there has to be a cutoff of what is healthy to worry about and then there's the point where I ruin today stressing about the future. Working on it slowly.
     Quote from the book that I loved:

                       Yesterday is gone......tomorrow only exists in the future. These, of course, are facts, but they are easy to forget as we spend so much precious energy thinking about things we did or didn't  do....or worrying about what might happen tomorrow. There are two days in the week that are not important...yesterday and tomorrow. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is never promised.

3. If you always do your best, you will not have regrets.
           REGRETS SUCK!!!! I made a goal long long time ago not to have any. I found myself lately having one and man does is suck, it hurts, and I have to make it better. Working on it as well.

4. In spite of your best efforts. some things are just out of your control.
            I am becoming more and more familiar with this simple yet so important fact of life. Learning to except certain things will help me get through alot I have found.

5. Things will always look better tomorrow. Stay positive.

Hope is a attitude. It is a mental shift that we choose for ourselves as we tap into our inner reserves. When we decide to be hopeful, we open ourselves to discover the wisdom and strength we may not have known existed. Our lessons, when veiwed from this perspective, show us that things generally work out as they should.

6. Sometimes a wrong turn will bring you to exactly the right place.

7. Sometimes when you think the answer is "no" it is just "not yet".

8. True friends share your joy, see the best in you, and support you through your challenges.

            Can't say enough about supportive friends. I don't have many that would stand by me for EVERYTHING but the couple I have I know will always be there for me.  

9. God and your parents will always love you.

10. For all your accomplishments, nothing will bring you more happiness that the love you find.

             Couldn't be more true when I look into my life today. Sure I have accomplishments and sure I love sharing them but nothing makes me more happy then talking about the love I have found in the past 21 years. This is the love from a supporting family, friends and Mike as of now. I could go on for hours, pages to pages about how blessed I am for the relationships I have formed. These are everlasting relationships that through thick and thin I will have.

I set out to do something and I know one day I'll see the end result come together and all the hard work and stress will pay off. I made it this far and only good things can come of it :)